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| pixel:
Short , pleasant version of the last several months: Van vanished one fine morning. It Got repo'd, as I ran out of money to make payments. I was fortunate to work out a deal with them to get it back... but it tacked on another 600$ to what I owed. Just a few months ago, I was sleeping in my minivan. Couldnt afford a place to live. Middle of winter, NY, ... very cold. Moved into a place I can just barely afford, and its a few feet from a busy intersection. Loud traffic, Pounding Subwoofers from cars sitting at the lights, that shake the building... at all hours of the day and night. At least twice a month.. a small resturaunt across the street has a DJ play music... and they must have a +10,000 watt sound system. Even with a good 50 feet or so away... each subwoofer hit is like an earthquake. Music still audible, even after insulating the hell out of all window areas. This goes like from 10pm to 2 / 3am... Place I work at... someone must have a dog with flee's.. as they are now feasting on me daily... itching badly... Vans blinkers are often clicking the wrong signal than what I choose. Electrical issue. Probably cant afford to repair before this Aug... when it wont pass inspection, due to another electrical error that makes the ABS go on/off randomly (now a solid brake error showing). Had to move my belongings like 4 times this year so far. Jaw is too far forward... needs operation. Its very uncomfortable to have to pull the jaw inwards.. and hold it there... just to be able to close my mouth. Dental Partial that forms my 4 front fake teeth.. doesnt fit. I bite down on metal all day/night long... and the plastic has ground down to the metal plate from teeth digging into it. It will probably break completely in a year... if Im lucky... Glasses need replacing. All scratched up. Frame suddenly broke at the worse possible time... and was not repairable. I was lucky... I found reading glasses, that used the same frame parts... and after some time.. was able to strip the scratched coating off the lenses. But there is some distortion on the lenses.. and this causes me fatigue / headaches at times. Cant eat / drink eggs, wheat, dairy, soy. Have to spend several hours prepping and cookinh dishes from scratch. Expensive food costs. Lot of time spent cooking, and cleaning ... instead of relaxing, and or creating. Finally got healthcare started up... then the state suddenly canceled my policy due to a mess up with my PO box. Got started again... and hospital seemed to have been claiming that they didnt get my two money order payments... and, they only covered half the price of my med... which was shocking... Health is random. Some days Im ok. Others I have bloating, constipation, joint pains, weak yellowed teeth, muscle / body / feet pains, migraines. Sometimes, one or the other... sometimes a combination of several or all. Any interpersonal stresses, such as an argument... causes me a ptsd reaction now (due to former abuses + health degradation). Will get a near instant migrane, and my whole body will feel like it was just dipped into a deep-fryer. Burning fire sensation... inside and out. Then I get so fatigued from it... that I usually have to crash-nap / sleep it off. Some nights Im so exhausted, that I crash in my work chair... and or can not find the energy to cook dinner + lunch for the next few days. So I end up eating ham slices, and multivitams, for my lunch and dinner. Debt collectors calling often... I do not hate life anymore (thank the heavens I learned meditation, and found great help though it, and enlightening material ... ) ...but I just cant seem to do more than float, or sink... and its getting harder to keep up the fight, as age climbs... The hardest part for me now... is not being able to be creative. No time / energy.. and or at times... resources.. to be able to do great things... And so depression eventually finds its way to me... Edit: Chuff read backwards.. pretty much sums it up. |
| GrizzlyThunder:
NY is a rough place, would moving to a state where cost of living is better and provide better services be an option? WeChat: GrizzlyThunder |
| thomas_surles:
Move to georgia. I'll get you a job selling gas and blunt wraps. |
| BadMouth:
My stressful job and flat tire seem trivial now. --- Quote ---The hardest part for me now... is not being able to be creative. No time / energy.. and or at times... resources.. to be able to do great things... --- End quote --- What is it you create when you do have time? |
| pixel:
--- Quote from: BadMouth on May 25, 2017, 09:16:21 am ---My stressful job and flat tire seem trivial now. --- Quote ---The hardest part for me now... is not being able to be creative. No time / energy.. and or at times... resources.. to be able to do great things... --- End quote --- What is it you create when you do have time? --- End quote --- If you look around, you will see some of my game design concept artworks. Most of my time was dedicated to this. I have stacks of design works, going back since I was a little kid... but my art skills were far lacking. Ive been working to advance these skills, and have produced some recent pictures, that far better illustrate what Id like to get made. I also want to try my hand at oil and water painting. Ive done the bob ross stuff when I was 20.. but that method is too generic and limited. Its time to learn the real deal. Ive also used acrylics, and recently helped to restore a pinball playfield... but overall acrylics do not blend well, and lack translucency and vibrance of oils. I Want to build a 100% mechanical ice cold beer game variation. Possibly using a pinball for more challenge... Maybe a large scale "two player only" version.. with a bowling ball... Want to try to redesign a pinball machine... Have ideas to try for personal transport, like a bionic animal-gate converter. Still want to build something to play the classics... Would love to get the right people together, to create a better controller, for digital art input. Have many other mechanical based game/toy ideas, as well as game experiments Id like to try. Want to make some form of force-feedback simulator. Either something somewhat typical... or maybe: - A fully cable driven harness, that allows you to be lifted, slid, moved... in all directions. - A special game controller for Target Earth.. where you are attached to a counter-weighted arm/seat... that mimics the Mecha's floating jump gate... thus adding a really cool feel to the game. Force feedback (motors and or bass shakers) to feel the explosions, and separate feedback for your guns firing (solenoids). - A special controller for the game "Kick". A unicycle like setup, with bike pedals / bike wheel - to deliver the analog speed and direction. With a bar-suspended, air filled ball, that you actually have to kick, to active the kick button function. Maybe add the addition of a handlebar set, for traditional bike games (or even something like Prop-Cycle. Paperboy converter?.. etc) - Still have a great Multi-Spinner design Id like to try to put together. - As well as some other special arcade controllers / converters. - And I have make a Starwars yoke... considering that somehow, mine arcade yoke was either lost in the shuffles.. or outright stolen... like my speakers, my ultimark encoder, my real high carbon steel chinese broadsword.. and a bunch more... =.( - Want to experiment with Blacklight UV paintings... So much I want to do... |
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