Thanks all,
So I’m doing better and better. Will take some time to recover do to swelling and what have you but the MD’S all seem the think that I will recover. At the moment I need to go ZE, particular not to punch my body to hard while I recover. So fare it looks like I’ll recover back to normal. It also looks like it was not cancer, but won’t be confirmed next week.
Thanks to all for your support.
I had something similar happen in 2017, although I don't have all your details I'm sure in some capacity I can relate. Here's the short version of mine:
-Headaches and anger issues from 2010-2017
-mid 2017 started having issues doing regular stuff but I'm a trooper so I just kept working (no employers are worth what I put myself through)
-August 2017 doctors thought I had crazy STDs because my nervous system was so messed up
-December they discovered I had a baseball sized tumour in my head, I wanted to finish up my christmas contract and delay the surgery (this is how messed up my thinking was) and they said my surgery was scheduled and I will have it IF I LIVE THAT LONG
-I couldn't afford a private room, but I got one anyways. They cut my face off and then went in through my forehead. Literally stapled my face back on.
-I had a cute catheter nurse for a few days and went home against doctor's orders for xmas
I healed up fine, I have never tried to take so much care of myself as I did after the surgery. The scars are hidden in my hair but on one side the hair didn't grow along the cut line so I have this white stripe. "conversation piece"
The biggest issues I face are reduced mobility on my left side (I've been playing guitar for over 25 years, this is awful) my mouth is kind of paralyzed on one side so I kind of talk out of one side of my mouth. There wasn't enough room in my skull so the tumour crushed my left eye and it works enough to be a problem. But by far, the hardest thing to deal with has been the abrupt personality change. It's like I don't even know me. Hopefully yours isn't as drastic, but I have sort of an internal identity crisis... this article has helped me and others around me to explain sort of what I am going through since I can't really put it into words myself:
https://www.psychologytoday.com/ca/blog/concussion-is-brain-injury/201805/brain-injury-grief-is-extraordinary-grief?fbclid=IwAR0lBPAEU-rbNpln19hooK_yfLEbM-fQs7Zh_VzKZ0j_TQP_2GQJulGVknUFeel free to message me, and if you have issues dealing with things I urge you to go to a counsellor/phsychiatrist etc. If it's cost prohibitive at least in my area there were free or discounted options. There's a lot of negative stigma associated with it but we go to the doctors when our bodies are unwell and I think we should feel no shame doing it when our minds are unwell.