1st, still no word from the financial planner. I'll try to call him later today, but I already know its gonna b a very busy day, so I can't promise I'll get to it. Soon, in any event. I'm a little perturbed he hasn't called me.
I just went back thru these posts to the very start, & I still can't really believe it all. I thot I might b surprised by my posts here, that they would look new somehow, or that there'd b elements to them that I'd forgotten, but, for the most part, they read & feel like a I could have written them a week ago at the latest.
& yet the changes have been profound, &, in the end, a surprising number of them have been positive.
I'm still not sure what we're gonna do about money. I know that, come what may, I am NOT returning to the kind of work I'd been doing. I felt like I was being lazy & selfish about this for quite a while, & then I saw a friend who hasn't seen me almost since the start of all this, & the look of shock on her face, coupled with her statement that I looked 10 years younger reminded me of all the evils of that job. I'd spent 13 years in a factory, doing work I hated, supporting an industry I don't believe in, for people who couldn't have cared less if we lived or died. I averaged 5 hours of sleep a night. Many nights I remember stumbling half asleep thru the streets when I should have been in bed, walking H's service dog. There were days, too, when I was working & almost collapsed because I was falling asleep on my feet. My weight had crept up to almost 240, I was too tired to b interested in anything, & life had, in general, become an endless grey hell. I'm absolutely certain that I wouldn't have lived another decade, &, in fact, I was counting on it.
Wow. I don't think I'd realized just how bad it'd been. I've never summed it all up like that. That clenches it--I'm NOT going back to anything like the previous work I've done, come what may.
& theres another piece of good news I c I've not mentioned in the past posts--sometime in late Febuary, Harrison suddenly started to eat so much that I have only had to give him 2 small tube feedings since, & both of those were in Febuary. He's now averaging somewhere around 1500 calories a day. The only possible explanation I can c for it is that hes gone thru a growth spurt--his height has gone up by about 1 1/2" since Febuary. We're still a long way from removing the 'tube--we have to b absolutely sure hes not going to regress, but its certainly a big step in the right direction. Now we're working on WHAT he eats. lol
Well, I hadn't intended to go on this long, but I'm glad I did. Now, off to bed. Take care everyone, &, as always, thanks, thanks, thanks
Craig